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一花一世界，一叶一追寻。一曲一场叹，一生为一人。

2012-02-10T05:41:00.001-08:00

2012-02-05T22:43:00.000-08:00

so good i have to share. Chester See's voice is........(Y)

BIRTHDAY.

2012-02-01T06:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 19TH, chingkun/pornyi/ dua fong.

Happy awesome 19th birthday, chingyiiiiiiiii!! ^^

I've said all in the card i gave you this morning. <3

STAY CHEERFUL, HAPPY, CUTE AND REAL ALWAYS!

♥

CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012

2012-01-25T04:23:00.000-08:00

HIE.

Culi was......meh.

Dont like chef * at all. Worst kitchen everrrrrrrr.

Hoping that the other 3 weeks will be over soon.

T05 reunion dinner with some of the t05, haha. Was good. ^^

Had 08 reunion dinner #1 after csit test, but nvr take any pictures.

08 reunion dinner #2 on friday. HIAKHIAK, cant wait ^^

BUAIZXZ

ONCE UPON A TIME.

2012-01-21T07:50:00.001-08:00

i find it difficult for me to like anyone again, is it normal for a 18 year old? I dont know, it's just that i'm too afraid to like someone, too afraid that things will turn out otherwise, too afraid of getting hurt and cry every night before going to bed. Whenever i think i might like a particular person, i stopped all feelings before it gets any deeper, because i know in the end, i will be the one getting all hurt and sad, alone.

:') 步步惊心

2012-01-16T04:15:00.000-08:00

只想让你知道
我真的很好
爱一生恋一世
我也会等你到老
只想让你知道
放不下也忘不掉
你的笑你的好
是我温暖的依靠

THIRTY.

2012-01-14T22:31:00.001-08:00

1. Five ways to win your heart

Flowers, Balloons, Handmade stuff, sincerity, love

2. Something you feel strongly about

It was once love. I used to be that girl who believes true love exists and that there is that one person out there for everyone, but not now anymore. Maybe someday i will find that one person, maybe not.

I hope that feeling will come back to me once again.

3. A book you love

Disgrace, hands down.

4. Bullet your whole day

Woke up, studied accounting, do some project and use the computer (half day)

5. Things you want to say to an ex

No ex.

6. Your views on mainstream music

Overrated, but i'm one of the many who likes it.

7. Five pet peeves

Non stop coughing

Non stop sneezing

Babies crying

Loud Bikes

Wet hair

8. What you ate today

Toasts, and milk

9. How important you think education is

Very important to start your life in the work industry, but useless once you start working.

10. Put your music on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play

Boys Like Girls - Go
Boys Like Girls - Five Minutes To Midnight

2NE1 - It Hurts
Boys Like Girls - Contagious
Big Bang - My Girl
蕭敬騰 - 王子的新衣
Super Junior - Insomnia
Super Junior - It's You
Green Day - Know Your Enemy
MGMT - Pieces of What

11. Your family

The most important people in my life

12. Five guys whom you find attractive

No particular guys. It's the feeling.

13. Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it

I have my good days and bad days. not entirely very comfortable, but too lazy to do something about it.

14. What you wore today

Super Junior Baseball jacket and light brown shorts

15. Your zodiac/ horoscope and if you think it fits your personality

Pisces, to a certain extend.

16. Something you always think "what if..." about

What if this whole life i'm living in is nothing but a dream, and one day i will wake up from this dream and am living in a totally different life. Hmm..

17. Something you are proud of

My awesome family.

18. A problem you have had

Trust issues, i find it difficult to trust people when i was younger.

19. Five items you lust after

Fossil watch
Iphone
Vintage Camera
charms
Guitar

20. Your fears

Start working and becoming someone I'm not

21. How you hope your future will be like

Doing things that i love, dont necessarily have to earn alot, but good enough to live happy.

Being with someone i love and love me back the same way.

22. Your academics

Not too bad, can be better

23. Something that you miss

My younger self

24. Five words/phrases that make you laugh

I laugh pretty easily.

25. Something you are currently worrying about

Sadly, Accounting :(

26. Things that you like and dislike about yourself

I like and dislike different things on every different day.

27. A quote you try to live by

"Be with people who appreciates you, not with the people who you wanna impress with."

28. Somewhere you'd like to move to or visit

Greece.

29. Five weird things that you like

Aliens, Wooden floors, Warm water, paper bags, brown paper

30. One thing you're excited for

The future.

BURGER KING

2012-01-13T07:04:00.000-08:00

today is a happy day.

Because i get to see the awesome people ^^

JJIANG!!

GOODBYE, GRANDPA...

2012-01-04T03:52:00.001-08:00

These 5 days had been really mentally and physically exhausting for the family. Everyone was really busy with everything.
It was difficult for me to talk to anyone about the incident, it felt terrible, like a stone on my heart. There wasn't anyone i can talk to, everyone was busy celebrating the year end and it seems weird to spoil their fun.

So I kept everything to myself.

When grandma walked us into the bedroom to see grandpa for the last time. I couldn't control my tears. He was there lying on that bed just like how he usually did, but it's different this time round, it will never be the same anymore, because he's gone, forever.

The funeral was really sad.
Grandpa left us peacefully,he lived 87 years of his life without regrets.
But the environment was really sad, i didnt really like going there because of the sad mood, but i had to and i want to be there during those last moments.

Today was the last day of the funeral. My grandma cried till her eyes were swollen, no one seems to be able to calm her down. She was devastated that grandpa is leaving her, forever.

Later in the afternoon we were at the place where grandpa body will be cremated. One last look, one last time where we are all able to call him grandpa.

Within minutes, he's gone.

I didnt cried as much as i thought i would. Maybe because deep down i know that he will be happier in the other world, and the day he left us was the day he stopped suffering. Grandpa, i hope you will find peace and happiness in the other world, even thou you are not here with us anymore, you will live in our hearts forever.

Thanks to everyone who showed concern these past few days, even thou i dont show it through actions or words or expressions, I'm really glad you guys asked if i'm okay, it meant alot to me. You guys know who you are. Thank you so much.

I will get better.

31ST DECEMBER 2011

2011-12-31T08:47:00.000-08:00

31st December 2011, we lost our loving grandfather.
Rest in peace, Grandpa.

Grandpa, wherever you are going, i hope you will be happy there.

FAVOURITE COUPLE.

2011-12-30T06:43:00.001-08:00

2011-12-29T07:09:00.001-08:00

Sad for what? Affected for what?

Hais.

CHRISTMAS EVE PHOTOS; 2H02

2011-12-27T05:17:00.000-08:00

thanks shawn for the awesome card! ^^

Hahahahaha, i think all the photos were really cute and funny!

2011-12-26T05:16:00.000-08:00

hahahahahaha, so cute.

CHRISTMAS AND YEAR OF 2011

2011-12-25T01:53:00.000-08:00

1H08, The best class I've ever had in my poly years.
Thank you for everything. This was the nicest Christmas I've celebrated ^^

Nothing really matters when the company was awesome.

2H02, another amazing class which i'm so lucky to be in. Spending the eve of Christmas with you guys was wonderful. The silly photos we took, the games we played that made us all high and drunk, hahahaha.

This one whole year was a roller coaster ride.

#1 Met the nicest people ever and got close with them. Raymond, Daniel, Weichong, Sherri, Stephanie and Weiling. You guys are really wonderful and i'm really glad i met each and everyone of you. ^^

#2 Not to forget Chingyi, Michelle and Yiinshin too. you guys know how much you all mean to me, so......hehehehehe, dont need say so much liao. hehe. <3

#3 Awesome class 2H02 and 2H05. Really really nice and fun and interesting people. ^^

#4 Fell in like (I didnt love the person, so like. lol)

#5 Fell out of like

#6 Recover before the year comes to an end and be happy again.

Long story short, this year was incredible.

Meeting every single one of you were the best thing that happened in my life this year. :)

2011-12-22T08:42:00.001-08:00

i was wondering why do we have to put a question mark when asking a why question, if you start your sentence with a why arent you alrdy asking a question why need to put a question mark right.

why do you eat an apple
why do you go to school
why do you like him
why do you believe in aliens
why do you think i'm weird

bye.

HOHOHO

2011-12-22T05:20:00.000-08:00

finally finished wrapping all the presents and making of Christmas cards! ^^

#5686 I love brown paper.

2011-12-21T08:29:00.000-08:00

#368 i dont really mix well with new people, it's not that i dont like them or anything, i'm just......socially awkward or just shy
#369 i like to keep my feet warm

2011-12-19T00:54:00.001-08:00

i dont like cold floors and wet hair

Recently with all the awesome people

2011-12-18T22:39:00.000-08:00

sorry haven't been doing a proper post since forever
hehe. im still lazy to do it. But since they say pictures speaks a thousand words, i shall let the pictures do the talk. NOMNOMNOM.

okie takoyaki.

i like clean sheets and the smell of my parents room. hmm.

2011-12-18T10:11:00.000-08:00

newborn babies look like old man and it's rather fascinating to look at them.I like babies, they seem to represent a new beginning.

Misguided Ghosts

2011-12-18T07:20:00.000-08:00

Changes are good right.......? Y/N

life's good.
Need to watch Sherlock Holmes soon.

2011-12-15T07:33:00.000-08:00

surprises.
paper bags.
wooden floors.
daisies and turnips.

WEIRD FACTS

2011-12-11T05:59:00.000-08:00

1.I like to eat the skin off first for certain food items (e.g. buns, nuggets)
2.I always peel the skin on my lips when I'm bored, and will only stop if it starts bleeding
3.I play with my nails when i get nervous
4.I dont really like looking straight into people's eyes, it kind of frighten me in some way, i dont know why
5.I dont like replying to good luck texts before exams neither do i like people wishing me luck before a test/exam, i dont know why either
6.I go missing during exam/test period

goodbye.

THE REAL YOU.

2011-12-10T05:52:00.000-08:00

HIEROWS.

im pretty excited for Christmas.

ok.
next monday will be my first and only paper. but im really sad T.T, because i dont like that module. Next week will be really really busy too, will be juggling two jobs, i hope i wont regret it.

i really hope i have time to finish a book, but there's always no time for it. :(

2011-12-08T03:14:00.001-08:00

“There are few people whom I really love, and still fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world, the more I am dissatisfied with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependance that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense.”

Six December

2011-12-05T08:00:00.000-08:00

Happy 18th birthday baby girl.
The baby of the group. Finally turned eighteen after so long. Hahahaha.
We didnt get to meet up much this year due to our different schedules and school and tests and A levels. But you are and will always be someone important in my life.
I love you♥
Have a wonderful day with all your love ones.
We'll meet up after you come back from your trip!

hugs and kisses xo

i really, really really dont like you............................

2011-12-05T06:26:00.001-08:00

2011-12-05T06:23:00.001-08:00

"It’s hard to gather enough courage to tell someone how you feel; but it’s harder when they don’t feel the same. I’m going to bed and letting my subconscious deal with it. I’m not dealing with this today or tomorrow or next year. I’m done."

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

WEEK 2

2011-11-30T01:42:00.000-08:00

Never did i felt so disappointed of myself, until today.
I just cant seems to get anything right.
Everything i did was wrong, wrong, wrong.
I was so pissed and frustrated of myself.
so f useless.

FOREVER.

2011-11-29T06:49:00.000-08:00

[FULL] Leeteuk's Winning Speech for Album of the Year (MAMA)

Leeteuk: Hi Singapore, we've lived through our 20s with everyone, thank you. With many difficulties, with so many things happening, the members depended on each each other, also the members who are not with us, the ones watching TV right now, and the ones far away from us, I love you guys. When no one acknowledged us, no one knew us, the best fanclub who made us the best, as fans, letting us feel the "mightiness", ELF all over the world, I thank you again. We Super Junior are ugly ducklings, until the day we became swans, SM Entertainment's Lee Soo Man, Kim Youngmin and others who kept giving us help, and teacher Yoo Young Jin who gave us Sorry Sorry, Thank you. Super Junior's mentors, Young Joon hyung, Seung Joon hyung, Min Hwan hyung, Dae Bin hyung, Yong Sun hyung and (one more xxx) I really thank you. This award could be the last we receive before enlistment, it's an unforgettable awards ceremony, we will continue being a hard working Super Junior. Thank you everybody.

simple things in life

2011-11-28T04:57:00.001-08:00

i saw this group of guys buying flowers, im guessing for their prom date since it's the prom period now. But they dont look like high school kids to me. Maybe JCs?
ahh, they are so cute, i wanna give them a hug. TEEHEE.

DREAM HOUSE.

2011-11-26T23:58:00.000-08:00

My dream house will be a two stories house, maybe with a small garden outside with roses, daisies, sunflowers and all the happy flowers, or maybe not. A white mailbox will be outside the house.

The exterior will look really simple and clean. The interior will be themed vintage. the first storey will be divided into three, the living room, the dining area and the kitchen. For the living room, most of the furnitures will be made of wood, like you know wooden, brown furnitures. When you first stepped into the house you will notice rows and rows of bookshelves all filled with my favorite books. The floors will be pure white, totally white. The sofa will be made of wood too, but in a chic and classy way, the cushions will be in a light turquoise color. The coffee table will be right in front of the sofa, it will be a medium length rectangle wooden table with fine details on the legs and side of the table. Below the coffee table will be a color block carpet. Behind the sofa will be all the bookshelves. A small distance away from the coffee table will be a long rectangular shaped side board, the legs will be really short, no compartments to put anything, wooden. On top of it will be a television, unlike the furnitures the television will be of pop color, maybe green or red. You know the retro television people in the past used to have? Yea, something like that. On the wall right behind the television will be a painting, abstract painting to be exact, really colorful and matte. I almost forget, the doors, it will be wooden again but not all in brown color, the frame of the door will be white, the door itself will be brown. There will be few pieces of glasses on the door which made it see through, so a floral print cloth will be use to block the inside. Round door knobs, no door bells.

I will continue the rest at a later time.

they represent happily................................

2011-11-26T00:33:00.000-08:00

TOO YOUNG TO DIE.

2011-11-25T08:31:00.000-08:00

I wonder when im gone, what will family and friends remember me as.

DREAM BICYCLE;DREAM SCOOTER;DREAM CAR

2011-11-23T06:56:00.000-08:00

喜歡寂寞

2011-11-21T03:40:00.000-08:00

I dont know what exactly happened today. It happened too quick, too sudden, everything was but a blur to me. I was present, i was experiencing it but i cant remember clearly what exactly happened. I didn't expect myself to behave like that, i didn't know i could still have such strong feelings. Maybe it's the period of the month that's why i'm so sentimental and emotional and teary however, deep down i know that's not the truth. I used to believe that i will get better and i will forget everything, right now i really dont know... everything just proves that im still not okay, im still not getting any better. Everyday i tell myself tomorrow will get better but truthfully everyday seems the same to me, sucky.

I'm so stupid, i think there's no one out there as stupid as i am.

当时奋不顾身伸出我的手
看见了轮廓就当作宇宙
甜美的习惯变成生活
才了解了什么
如今故事发展成就一个我
学会了生活能享受寂寞
剧烈的语言变成温柔
又带来了什么
若是不曾走过怎么懂

2011-11-19T08:19:00.000-08:00

FOREVER AND NEVER.

2011-11-17T07:51:00.000-08:00

你陪着我的时候想着她
你听不见我的心在喧譁
明明我知道却装作没想法
是善体人意还是傻瓜

你陪着我的时候想着她
你看不见我的笑多受伤
世界有多大只剩下一个她
遮住我的星光还占领你的善良

Just listening to it i can feel the pain coming back bit by bit.

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

2011-11-14T23:46:00.000-08:00

It's not a dramatization of real people in most movies, but you feel as if they are real people living real lives.

LOVE IS A LIE.

2011-11-12T05:00:00.001-08:00

239) love vintage bicycles
240) hate taking eye check tests
241) love meat
242) prefer handmade stuff over anything in the world
243) elephant, seahorse, fish, lion
244) dresses
245) love ribbons, floral, anything cute

goodbye.

FOREVER AND NEVER.

2011-11-09T05:12:00.001-08:00

台啤.

2011-10-29T22:46:00.000-07:00

Everyone shld watch this documentary.

THE YOUTH

2011-10-27T08:02:00.001-07:00

one huge change in my life that recently happened. I chopped off my hair and straightened it. No more long wavy hair. I pretty much quite like it, so...it's a good change. haha.

Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were no-school-day for me. It was sooooooo boringggggg. Was suppose to go out with joce and mich on wed but apparently we didnt go out in the end. It was a really boring 3-day-holiday for me. So boring that i wish there was sch. At least i've got tons and tons of movies to watch and lazing around was amazingly good. hahahahahahaha. Im so lazy, i sleep for like 12 hours per day. When there was nothing for me to do, i go to bed.

x

2011-10-27T02:41:00.001-07:00

HANDS HELD HIGH.

2011-10-24T07:38:00.000-07:00

Always, 2H02

First day, new start, new sem, new class. But i will never forget my amazing class, 2H02, wonderful and cute people. ^^

New class consists of sherri, steph, chingyi, jinlin, so it wont be that bad. However i will definitely miss the others :(

So, today was the first day of sch. Nothing much actually cause only lectures and no tutorials on first week. And we were all sitting tgt during lectures. hehe ^^No sch on tuesday, wednesday and thursday, no culi too cause culi falls on wednesday. hehe ^^

HOKIE TAKIE.

BRAND NEW EYES

2011-10-20T06:06:00.000-07:00

HIE.

New start of my semi new life. hahaha.

Got our timetable today, also got to know who's in the same class. Happy with mine since we know most of us. Hoping that i'll get to meet nice new people when the sem starts. ^^

Work was really...............................boring. But the company is great. So, all is well.

Got accepted by abercrombie and fitch.

goodnight humans.