These 5 days had been really mentally and physically exhausting for the family. Everyone was really busy with everything.
It was difficult for me to talk to anyone about the incident, it felt terrible, like a stone on my heart. There wasn't anyone i can talk to, everyone was busy celebrating the year end and it seems weird to spoil their fun.
So I kept everything to myself.
When grandma walked us into the bedroom to see grandpa for the last time. I couldn't control my tears. He was there lying on that bed just like how he usually did, but it's different this time round, it will never be the same anymore, because he's gone, forever.
The funeral was really sad.
Grandpa left us peacefully,he lived 87 years of his life without regrets.
But the environment was really sad, i didnt really like going there because of the sad mood, but i had to and i want to be there during those last moments.
Today was the last day of the funeral. My grandma cried till her eyes were swollen, no one seems to be able to calm her down. She was devastated that grandpa is leaving her, forever.
Later in the afternoon we were at the place where grandpa body will be cremated. One last look, one last time where we are all able to call him grandpa.
Within minutes, he's gone.
I didnt cried as much as i thought i would. Maybe because deep down i know that he will be happier in the other world, and the day he left us was the day he stopped suffering. Grandpa, i hope you will find peace and happiness in the other world, even thou you are not here with us anymore, you will live in our hearts forever.
Thanks to everyone who showed concern these past few days, even thou i dont show it through actions or words or expressions, I'm really glad you guys asked if i'm okay, it meant alot to me. You guys know who you are. Thank you so much.
I will get better.
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