Baby you are all i need in darkness you are all i see

Hi there, people who still continue visiting my blog! Hehe, been away too long because i lost the feel to blog for very very long, but decided to blog a little today.

Anyways i didn't really talk about the aftermath of graduation from TP. So yups. 

Many of my friends decided to continue studies in uni, while I on the other hand chose a different road. I choose to work as an early childhood trainee teacher, since teaching is sort of what i've wanted? But 2 months down the road i quit. 

Basically things were pretty rough for me after graduation. I was pretty lost and don't really know what i wanted to do with my life. I wanted to study but i wasn't sure which degree i really wanted and i just can't bring myself to choose smthing i dont really life because uni fees is crazyyyyyy -,- 

I'm the type of person who needed plans and goals. So when i was accepted as a trainee teacher basically the next 3 years of my life will be planned and organized properly for me. But little did i know this was not something i want and i really can't imagine myself staying in it for the next 3 years. 

I love the kids, i really do. Even though some of them piss me off so much. I still love them thou, because they are all so innocent and cute and wonderful little human beings who made me have a little more faith in the human race once again. Teehee. 

I remember having this convo with one of the kid in the sch 

Me: Lucas, today is my last day here alrdy

Lucas: Huh.... why???

Me: Because im going to go to my new company to work

Lucas: Why??? Why can't you stay here??

Me: Because i've got a new job, that's why i need to leave

Lucas: But why.....? (Murmur something i cant hear him)

Me: Huh? Talk louder i cant hear you.

Lucas: I love you leh, don't leave can.....?

Melts my heart instantly.

I don't even know whether i'm a good teacher or not. Because i don't treat my students like children, i talk to them like they are my friends and during their nap time i will talk to them when other teachers are not looking. Hahaha, they are so interesting to me, the way they answer my questions and respond to me. 

Awwww, i miss them so much. But I've already started on my full time job which don't allow me to have the time to visit them. I think they all forgotten who am i alrdy. 

Okay, that's about it. Too tired to type anymore. 

x